The time has come! I'm up for renewal here but I just can't see paying for the Bloggie anymore. So I'm moving! Please come and visit me at http://timetoknit.wordpress.com/! It is the end of yet another era for me. I'm excited :D
The time has come! I'm up for renewal here but I just can't see paying for the Bloggie anymore. So I'm moving! Please come and visit me at http://timetoknit.wordpress.com/! It is the end of yet another era for me. I'm excited :D
We have been busy busy at the new place painting, ripping up carpet, you name it. Today I was so happy to finally finish M's room! The colors aren't true I don't think, but they are purple, fortune cookie yellow, and bright red. I am so happy with how it turned out. I totally love the white stripes and the red next to the white trim. Love it! I did two walls plain purple, two walls with the stripes, and the ceiling white. I still have some touch up to do but overall it worked out great. I'd definitely recommend Frog Tape instead of the blue or purple painters tape, it really helped.
Anyway, we hope to get the basement walls painted in the next couple of days, I've already done all of the ceilings and my neck paid for it dearly. Glad it's done though. After that we will be attempting to put laminate floors down, hopefully it goes off without a hitch! Yeah right ;)
It is not all gloom and doom around here. As I'm typing, The Boyfriend is off signing closing papers on a house!! We got lucky and found a great house for a steal in Murray, so as soon as we get some things all squared away we will be moving there. Yay!
Just wanted to say thank you for listening. Today was pretty much a wash, M has a stomach bug and I've just been laying around with her. I'm just going to keep trying to make every day good, and not worry about the future me too much. That might be easier said than done, but I will try. I haven't decided how to get myself back on track. I think the easiest way to get control of my eating is to count calories. But I also want to do the Intuitive Eating thing because I feel like that will really be the way I can change for life. Whatever I decide to do I'm going to lay off the booze for a while. It is pretty counterproductive, duh.
So thanks again for the encouragement, I needed it :)
I was reading this post today after a bad day of eating and drinking. I'm pretty depressed right now, thinking I haven't really gotten anywhere since then. I'm probably 10 pounds heavier than I was then. I have had had so many 'start days', when I would start a new plan or diet. Intuitive Eating didn't last too long. Well it did, but I wasn't getting anywhere or losing any weight so I guess I quit. I tried ultra low-carb for the last two weeks. I really only succeeded with one week and then this past week was a bomb. I guess it is time to face facts.
I like to drink beer, too much. I like the buzz, but it makes me bloated and I don't make good choices as far as what to eat. If I drink too much one day, I'm craving carbs and sugar the next. So I could go a week and do really well with eating and exercise, but then on the weekend drink too much and as a result the whole weekend is a bomb. Who wants to exercise with a hangover?! So yeah, no brainer. That needs to stop.
I can't do a 'diet'. When I lost weight the first time, I did it by counting calories/tracking what I ate, and exercise. And I didn't drink. I just did what I needed to do. I ate what I wanted but changed the things I ate, the way I cooked, and how much I ate. But I think that I forget that it didn't start out perfectly. I remember tracking Wendy's chicken sandwiches on my list. And I didn't start out running half marathons. I began with Denise Austin exercise videos. By the way, she is nuts! I couldn't do the video like she did, for sure. But I did it. I put M to bed and then worked out, probably only a few times a week. I don't think I was obsessing about anything, just trying to change. Now it seems like I am consumed by the fact that I am overweight. It shouldn't define me, but I feel like I let it do just that.
I'm having a really hard time getting to a place where I feel okay. The weekend binges are part of a pattern that somehow has a payoff, though I'm not sure what that is. I'm still overweight. I feel like crap afterward. It's like running with one foot nailed to the floor. I feel like I will never get anywhere. I don't know what to do, besides recover from my excess and then pull myself up and try again tomorrow. I think I need to look at my life as something I do every day, right now, not as sometime in the future, after I lose the weight. That sounds ridiculous right? I feel like I'm going crazy, I'm crazy, but maybe it is the things I do that are crazy. Not me. I just have to change the things I do.
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