I picked up Winning by Losing at the library the other day, and quickly read almost all of it on the same day. I will admit that I love Jillian, I love watching her on The Biggest Loser and I have a few of her workout videos, she basically kicks some serious butt. Would it be lame to even say that I want to look like her? It's not really even that, but I want to be the best I can be, and I know that if I work hard I can also get rid of the weight and also get super toned like her. It is just a goal, and those are good right?! Anyway, I like the book. She obviously gets good results with the people on The Biggest Loser so I figure she knows what she's talking about.
I realized that I needed a heart rate monitor, so I got one - blue of course :) I need to maximize my workouts so that I'm not just spinning my wheels. I tried it out last night and I'm already in love. I'm a sucker for new toys though!
I need to focus more on the math of losing weight, i.e. calories eaten vs. calories burned. So I'm going to quit Weight Watchers. It isn't really doing me much good to earn a bunch of activity points and then eat every single one of them. I need to make sure I'm also maximizing my nutrition so that I can work as hard as I can and get the most results possible for me.
I also need to work on myself. How I see myself, how I talk to myself, how I value myself, and on and on. I truly am my very own worst enemy, really. I could be doing something perfectly, but I would still be able to find some fault in it just for the fact that it was something that I was doing. Lame right? It is something I've done for a long time, and I say I've been working on it for a long time, but I know I just need to let it go. Let it go, move on, and be a new me. And I know it's no revelation, but if I put my mind to it I can achieve anything I want to. So I need to get my mind there, and I will.'
In other stuff, I rejoined Sparkpeople, mostly for the community interaction - even though I'm only in one group so far - lol. I was in another group before, but it seems to have dissolved. If anything it should be interesting and I should get something out of being there and reading and posting. I just don't really want to feel alone in this, and I think SP might help that.
Still doing good with the eating and working out (mostly), though I need to re-think how I'm going to eat and work out and that is my goal today. I did 55 minutes yesterday for a monthly total of 2510.